OVER THE YEARS i TOOK ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR, FiVE AND MORE STEPS BACK, UNTiL MY iNNER WORLD WHiMPERED ANGRiLY, BUT WAS DiSMiSSED, WHAT THE HECK? i FOR SURE DiDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. MY DRiViNG NEEDS LEFT YOU TO JUST FREEZE. i FELT YOU SUFFER iN MY EMBRACE. MY WANTS ECHO SiLENTLY AS THEY WERE DESTiNED TO FLAP iN THE BREEZE.

STEPPiNG BACK, DiSMiSSED
EMBRACE EQUALS SUFFERiNG
SiLENT WANTS ECHO

TO BE CLEAR. iN MY UNDERSTANDiNG, NO ONE iS SUPPOSED TO iMPOSE AND DEFiNiTELY NOT TO FORCE ANYONE TO DO UNWELCOME, iNTiMATE ACTS. SO, iN ALL THiS TiME, i WAS LEFT TO FEAR. AND i DiD WHEN i ALLOWED MYSELF TO ASK. FOR YEARS AND YEARS, i SiLENTLY CRAVED EVERY DAY HUGS AND KiSSES. WHiLE i STAYED iN THiS UNPLEASANT GAME, MY SOUL FLOODED WiTH HOT, NOT CRiED TEARS. NEGLECTiNG MY MiND AND FRAME.

THE LiNE TO RAPE BLURS
FLOODED SOUL DRiED iN HOT TEARS
NEGLECT AS FRAMEWORK

i'M TRULY A TOUCHY FEELY KiND OF PERSON, AND i CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TiME i UNWOUND SNUGGLiNG OR STAYED RELAXiNG WiTH MY HEAD LYiNG iN YOUR LAP.  WHAT'S HURTiNG EVEN MORE, iS WiTHOUT FULFiLLMENT THROUGH THE SMALLEST EVERY-DAY TOUCHES, i'M ALSO OUT OF THE GAME OF EVERY KiND OF SEXUAL ATTRACTiONS AND/OR ACTiONS. EVENTUALLY, i STOPPED FORCiNG MYSELF TO TAKE PART iN THESE. YES, THE NEGLECT AND ABANDONMENT i FELT WERE MORE THAN SOLE iNFRACTiONS.

LiViNG TOUCH DEPRiVED
EQUALS MENTAL iNFRACTiONS
WORLD OF WORDLESS HURT

i LOST MYSELF WHiLE i TRiED TO RESPECT YOUR NEEDS WiTH MY SELF-ENFORCED RETREAT. MY ATTEMPTS TO SPARE YOU TURNED OUT TO BE A CURSE TO MYSELF. i DiSMiSSED MY iNNERMOST CORE BY FORCiNG MYSELF TO ENDURE A LiFE LACKiNG TOUCH, iNTiMACY AND BODiLY CONTACT. BUT WHAT FOR? AS TO THiS DAY, i ASK: WHOSE NEEDS COUNT MORE? iS FORCED, SELF-iMPOSED OR NOT, ABSTiNENCE JUST AS BAD AS UNWELCOME iNTERACTiON? UNDER THiS TOUGH QUESTiON, i BENT MY BACK. UNTiL i, FOR ONE, FELT MYSELF CRACK.

LOST iN TRiED RESPECT
iNNERMOST CORE LEFT BEREFT
NO RESOUNDiNG QUEST

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your opinion?

i'm curious.