iN BETWEEN

DiDN'T THiNK i WOULD SEARCH OUT THiS PLACE. iN BYGONE TiMES, i WONDERED WHAT YOU, OR PEOPLE iN GENERAL, WOULD FiND HERE. NOW, i'M ONE OF THEM, SiTTiNG ON THiS DAMP WOODEN BENCH, HUNCHED SHOULDERS HURTiNG. i'M NOT KNOWiNG WHY… iT'S LiKE MY HEART'S GONE BLiND. THE ViEW, i MUST SAY, iSN'T TOO GREAT, CAN'T SEE NEiTHER ONE NOR THE OTHER SiTE. SO iN BETWEEN SEEM TO BE THE RECURRiNG THEME.

iN BETWEEN THE SiTES.
iN BETWEEN THE TiMES.
iN BETWEEN HEART AND HEAD.
iN BETWEEN NOW AND THEN.
iN BETWEEN YOU AND HER.
iN BETWEEN REPROACHES AND SORROW.

AS i'M SiTTiNG HERE, i FEEL THE DAMPNESS CREEPiNG iN. THE DANK AiR SETS iTSELF ON MY CHEEKS. iT REMAiNS. AFTER A WHiLE, i ACKNOWLEDGE THE MOiSTURE iSN'T FED ONLY THROUGH THE AiR. i'M SORRY. SO, SO, SORRY. SiTTiNG ON THiS UNCOMFORTABLE BENCH, i BEMOAN MY ACTiONS. AND CRY SiLENT TEARS FOR YOU.

BECAUSE YOU WERE ALONE.
BECAUSE i CAME TOO LATE. 
BECAUSE i FALED.
BECAUSE WE LOST A LAST GOODBYE.

AFTER A WHiLE, MY THOUGHTS ARE REACHiNG OUT. MY SOUL SENDS TENDRiLS OF HEARTFELT WHiSPERS, WEAViNG A NET OF LOVE. iNCLUDiNG YOU AND HER AND ME. BETWEEN YOUR GRAVES, YOURS HERE SiNCE LAST YEAR, HERS FOR SO MUCH LONGER, i ALLOW MYSELF TO MOURN. FiNALLY. AFTER 12 LONG YEARS, THESE TEARS ARE ALSO FOR HER; SHE iS GONE SO LONG, AND i COULDN'T CRY FOR HER. NOW, AS YOU HAVE BOTH LEFT, i HOPE YOUR SPiRiTS ARE UNiTED AGAiN.
i DON'T KNOW HOW LONG i STAY. BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN, iT iS LiKE iNViSiBLE SHACKLES ARE LOOSENED. PERMiSSiON iS GRANTED TO STAND UP AND TAKE THE FiRST STEP. AFTER FOLLOWiNG THE PATH HALFWAY DOWN, i PAUSE.

TURNiNG, i TAKE A DEEP BREATH.
i LOVE YOU, MA. GOODBYE.
ANOTHER DEEP BREATH.
i LOVE YOU, PA. GOODBYE.
AGAiN ONE DEEP BREATH.
i'LL MiSS YOU.
i'LL FORGiVE ME AND YOU.
i'LL CHERiSH YOU.

i TURN AND GO.
THE REST OF MY LiFE iS WAiTiNG.
W3 | The Skeptic’s Kaddish
W3|WEA'VE WRiTTEN WEEKLY|#153

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